#57

WHY?
If I were a professor of a philosophy class I would give that as a final term essay. "The question is, Why?" And many people wouldn't know how to approach that. It's so broad, so vast a topic it's hard to narrow it down. There is no right answer and if there is no right answer there is no wrong answer. And if there's no right or wrong answers there's nothing to judge. But there is. There's always something to judge because without judgment there'd be no opinion and without opinion there'd only be facts. And maybe people only want facts. But why? I don't understand; facts are boring mainly because I already know them partly because there's nothing to speculate about. I want to know how people feel about these facts because that's the thing that matters. "Why" matters. Why? Because without why there is nothing. Why? Because why questions everything there was, is and ever will be and without questions we're mindless people following what we think are facts. "Why" gives you the opportunity to see things in a new light and realize that just because something is said to be factual doesn't necessarily mean it is. Facts are up for interpretation which is where Why comes from.

The question is, Why? My answer is Why Not?

Destined from the start to never be apart. My heart aches without you near. I fear everything and nothing with you and see only you and want only you because there is only you. I fear me in this but like a filter, you remove the impurities that seem to consume me. You see past my exterior and see something in me that no one, myself included, ever has or will see. Love? No, a word like that doesn't begin to describe the magnitude of these feelings. Never will I say there's never been anything like us because I don't know, but never have I felt like this before.

Once we were something, but now we are nothing. And that is it, there's nothing but pure blackness where there was once light. How I want to hate you for everything but how I can't. You don't deserve the emotions you're trying to evoke, you don't deserve what it is you're trying to achieve. I don't know what your agenda is, but I'm not walking the path of confusion and mistrust any longer. Not for you or anyone. I love you but when you reiterate this, I have to urge to tell you not to use words you don't understand. I'm no longer your fool.