#26

Day by day it gets a little better, but I still feel confused.

Like I have things I want to say, but I'm not sure how to say them. Actually I don't even really know what I want to say. And I've learned from experienced that I need to make sense if I'm about to express myself and I can't do that. I really can't. Like things I'm thinking aren't being fully developed, my thoughts are pretty much all over the place and I keep trying to pin point certain ones so that I can understand them, but my word they're moving so damn fast. And on those rare occasions when I actually can think about something for a second, my thoughts start to scare me. It's like ughh, this stuff is just so...wow.

It just want to go back to how we were.