"...we'll make the biggest mistake of our lives..."
Many thoughts run through my mind. There's a flood of information, a lot of it numbing my reality and though I was truly proud of myself for achieving my goal of avoiding my sweet negative ailments, I don't believe I'll be able to keep this up.I'm learning that I don't understand a lot of things. Contrasting actions fascinate me. Why are we drawn to things that hurt? How can we physically be dying because of an emotion? How can we want to say so much yet no words escape our mouths? I've heard that things get easier with time; but I don't think so. I've heard that if you talk about it, you'll feel better; but I don't. I heard that if you do what's right you'll be rewarded; but I haven't been. Sometimes we are used to aid in the tests of those around us. Am I being used right now? The human body and mind are unbelievably fascinating.
And the world continues to spin even though mine is coming to a halt.
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We can't fully explain our actions, just like we can't completely explain why orange juice is good for us; we just know it is.
You can and will keep it up. It will eventually get easier, because if it doesn't then that means it's only getting harder. It will only get harder for so long until you can't take it anymore. No matter how much you pain, no matter how much you are through, no matter how much you hate it, you wake up every morning and take a breath. No matter how wretched a life you may have, you still haven't let this trial beat you. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. It may not make you prettier or any happier, but you are proving that you are stronger everyday by pressing on. I'm not saying it's going to be easy, or it will happen soon, or that things will get to where you want them to be; what I'm saying is this is another bump in the road and you'll survive.
And if you think my theory to be incorrect, then the day that you don't wake up anymore you can say "I told you so."
you mentioned something....that i ask myself quite a bit.
"why are we drawn to things that hurt?"
i do not know.
i do that all the time.
One thing that I do..."you want what you cant have."
thats me at times.
and i know it hurts me...because the things that i want, and i so desperatly reach out for; is out of reach. and i cant have it even though there might be something similar and good, but not as good, right infront of me and I KNOW THIS...and I STILL won't accept it.
AND i know i would probably be happy with this slightly not as good thing...though i would rather be miserable and open to the thing that i want the most then have something thats not as good but is out of reach.
idk if this makes sense. its kinda late and im rambling...so yea. haha
The mind holds a very powerful connection into the souls of others.
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