#63

How ever did you come to this?

And as the days progress I feel myself losing track of what I once saw a priority. I've yet to deem this negative or positive, I just see it as a change. To slip back into myself and remain their, only letting in those who belong. To disappear, only being seen by those with true eyes. Eyes that see what everyone else thinks isn't there. Oh, the irony of you. Sweet sweet irony.

"Accept the things you cannot change."
Someone asked me what I wanted for Christmas, but they got no response. I have her, was what I thought to myself. And as trivial and childhood crush-like as it may sound, I long for nothing more. While my eyes may wander, my heart and mind remain stationary. There's nothing better than this and to ask for anything more would be nothing short of selfish. So dear sir, I have everything I want and I need nor want for anything more, but thanks for asking.

#62

"...It'll be harder tomorrow."

And the word of the day is HUMILITY.
Forgive me as I digress...
I care little about anything having to do with you. Call it what you will because I care not. Compassion for strangers? Yes. Compassion for you? Saying I'm laughing would be more than an understatement. Empathy and sympathy are emotions that will never be associated with what I feel for you. I feel nothing, not even pity for you, which is strange to me but honestly, I care not. It's quite sad how you're situation makes me laugh. Really it is.

I now regress.
Humility comes from Humanity. Is this why I feel that it's diminishing too? Not that I try to make sense out of what it is that goes on around me, but when I take the time to observe the things that do, I see a depletion in what we call humility. What is the meaning of the word? It is foreign to our lips; we lost the taste so long ago, it seems as though it was never there. Quid pro quo this for that. As faith in humanity decreases faith in humility follows. I'm baffled by the hypocrisy, lies, selfishness and cruelty that occur with no consequence. Honestly, there is no consequence. It is my personal hell, but I fear not. Not for lack of knowledge or embracement of neglect but because of acceptance. Accept the things you cannot change. It's about today; I'm quite sure tomorrow could result in sheer and utter horror.

"Don't run, don't scream; you'll only makes it worse."